Starting My Daily vlogs

(Not exactly daily, but frequent blogs i will write something when i feel lost or when i miss her or if i want to get marry, which as of Aug 10 2025 i am not)

Today i was scrolling instagram, i found one story of iamtheyadhuvir he is a dating coach and he trains his student how to trap a girl and how to get laid (not exactly trap, but that is what i think), well the story had one couple doing french kiss super romantic, sexual then it struck me well i am not married nither i had any girl in my life so far, and i know that i am going for arrange marriage, what if i got struck with someone bad well that's everyboys nightmare but it hits me hard just because i worked my ass off uptill now from last 10 years constant not seen world at all, from house to lab, lab to house from the day i came in USA and my main goal is to enjoy after i get married, spend on her with her it scares the shit out of me.

we'll i am definately old school guy, i focus on improving my self first, for her i heard it from somewhere i will have to takecare of my self just for you, and you take care of your self for us (child),—— after some time i am ready this line again and i feel like it is not excat what i head but its somewhere close no offense if it sounds wrong i will fix

i made pavbhaji today new recipie it was good for the first time i got myself some buns from lidil store, and then i though if i marry i will definately make things for her frequently, as a part of the effort i will have to make to keep relationship running, —— sometimes i think i am blushing super hard having the day dream works like oxytocin

Now i got one wave of tension, motivation for job as always (sidestory: my current situation is iam in third sem of my masters in bioinformatics, i am constatly working on my projects learning new stuff just soo i can get a high paying job after my graduation) and the only motivation is if i work hard right now i will not have to work as hard as right now because i would have established a strong base so i would be able to enjoy with her, if you are reading it you are the best - love yaaa

Last not: i cross verified with chatGPT i want to keep it raw but to avoid any future issues i asked chatGPT is there anything controversial or any bad piece of romatic-ism he gave this line to me which made me really happy

It’s not poetic romance — it’s practical romance, grounded in real-life planning and emotional sincerity. That makes it relatable romance, not overly flowery.